Sadness, my merry friend

feel like shit again. im sick. down in the dumps. i hate how i’m feeling right now. i’m super lonely. with no one. this silence is so weird. but i appreciate having a tv. at least something reminds me im alive and that i can hear something. i know i’m not turning up for school tomorrow. my eyes are gonna be swollen and i am freaking sick. lonely bitch. even ashton kutcher can’t make me laugh. but then again he’s you know.. lame. i’m really sad.

Sadness, my merry friend

Sadness take me once more.

The loneliness tug at my core.

Don’t tell me i’m here without you,

my heart’s crying out aloud.

Abandoned, unwanted.

Oh hell, don’t tell me this is your invitation,

to somewhere without a sound.

Sadness, evelope me once more,

together with the teardrops, i cried my eyes sore.

– Jasmine Yee

 

You’re now entering the place,
where you sit or stand alone,
and loneliness you embrace.
The pain in your heart approaches,
your mouth gets dry,
all you feel like doing,
is sitting down to cry.
it feels like emptiness for miles,
here there are no smiles,
all you have is yourself,
and your broken heart.
The loneliness grows,
and that horrible feeling starts,
you hear nothing only groans.
The only people you see,
don’t even care about you,
they only live to survive.
Every time they talk,
everything takes a dive. 
So you just stand there,
wishing that someone cared,
but all they do,
is laugh and stare.
Cold people see you from a distance,
they don’t want to be near you,
they don’t even want to hear you.
Their insensitivity,
is uncalled for and unfair,
they leave you alone and in despair.
All you do is sit there alone,
you wish they would approach you,
but oh well.
You need a good friend,
and you feel that if you don’t find  one,
your sad world might soon end.

– from somewhere.

Les Miserables

hate   verb,

hat·ed, hat·ing, noun

–verb (used with object)

1.	to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest: to hate the enemy; to hate bigotry.

2.	to be unwilling; dislike: I hate to do it.

–verb (used without object)

3.	to feel intense dislike, or extreme aversion or hostility.

–noun

4.	intense dislike; extreme aversion or hostility.

5.	the object of extreme aversion or hostility.

 

(Above source from dictionary.com)

. i hate chemistry

. i hate school

. i hate O levels

. i hate sluts

. i hate skinny people

. i hate fifi

. i hate PRC

. i hate piangs

and the list goes on, imma stop here so that you won’t think i’m such a bitch.

HATE. this very very strong word that i used in so many circumstances that it  kinda lost its meaning. but today, i felt like a hated someone really badly. i’m a very temperamental person (you should know) and that someone kinda insulted this blog of mine.. which honestly, made me feel really pissed off because i treat this blog as my like, i don’t know, just something really dear. and if you DARE to say ANYTHING about it, you’re goin down. but it’s okay now you know i just feel really sore about it. i bet you won’t read this anyway.

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i heard the Os are coming!!! okay, lame. i KNOW the Os are coming and seriously this period of time is the most important. it can make or break anyone’s life because it’s just based on this one exam, few papers and like, the markers’ emotions. that’s it! whether you go to JC/Poly/ITE it’s just that. your life – in their hands. sheesh.

lalala. feel like shit right now. anyway, today’s recount :

found myself waking up in zing’s room , surprise surprise. no la.. then we just stoned and then went down for food. zing’s really like feeling sick that poor bitch, she complained SO much. aiyo aiyo get well soon.  hahaha she was given this grass thingy that her grandma grows in the backgarden. it’s supposed to help your throat feel less sore and make you feel uber good the next day. AND! the taste is HORRIBLE!! i tried one piece, ONE! and the taste was overwhelming and super bad la hahaha zing gagged it was so hilarious i kept laughing. and then in the morning during her meal she was made to drink this herbal tea that she hated, like she said it stinks and all, but i think it’s fine. what a brat 😉 right? argh feel like shit. feel like shit…

then we met mat at BK to study. they did chemistry and i did physics. got tired, needed a change of environment so we left for macs. then macs to staff canteen and then to _ _ _ _ _ to hang. it’s too embarrassing to type out that word. yuck.

feel like shit feel like shit

i dont’ feel like typing anymore so bye!

To Mat & Zing :

Ooh wah, ooh wah Ooh wah, ooh wah Ooh wah, ooh wah Why do fools fall in love? Why do birds sing so gay And lovers await the break of the day Why do they fall in love? Why does the rain fall from up above? Why do fools fall in love? Why do they fall in love? Love is a losing game And love can be a shame I know, of a fool you see For that fool is me Tell me why Tell me why Why do birds sing so gay And lovers await the break of the day Why do they fall in love? Why does the rain fall from up above? Why do fools fall in love? Why do they fall in love? Why does my heart Skip a crazy beat? For I know It will reach defeat Tell me why Tell me why Why do fools fall in love? Tell me why Tell me why

too close for comfort

yay 3 more weeks till Os, three more week till the real test begins. i know i’m nuts to like, rejoice, but really, after 10 years, it all comes down to this – the Ordinary Levels people!

i guess this period is like crucial to everyone especially the people who are aiming for the skies, satellites and you know, things suspended in space…

been out with zing & mat at the cathay and we had super a lot of fun. so depressing that brain couldn’t come.. cos if not we can relate to today’s events.. cos you know.. she’s like my wavelength! not like the two other bimbos (coughs). screw your sub-religion!!!!! HOWEVER, the MRT ride back home wasn’t. dear dear singapore, what’s becoming of you? invaded by all the china people la! like, everywhere you turn your head to, you can see like, at least 2 chinese. i’m not exaggerating, okay maybe sliiiiiiightly.. i LOVE being a public nuisance woohoo we were making fun of

1) a couple who can’t wait to get back to their house to like procreate

2) a CHINA couple who were so gross, they were made for each other anyway , but they’re just gross. EW. the guy’s gross too.YUCK. goosepimples

3) CHINA people getting off at bedok. (sorry brain)

4) zing’s spilling boobies hahahahahaha

YES! had fun had fun had fun so glad i did have fun even at this ‘critical juncture’ ahhaha woohoo i’m like soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo looking forward to after Os. can’t wait for UK too! yes yes yes yes !

anyway! i’m staying over at zing’s tonight i bet we’ll have fun even though we have to like study. but, afterall we don’t wanna do badly for our Os, do we?

i smell bitchy.

envelope my sadness, wordpress

right now i can’t find any other way to express how i feel and what my emotions are. i don’t know why i feel like crap now. i hate myself. i don’t know why? i feel hopeless about EVERYTHING and this feeling sucks. i’m crying and crying for what? i don’t know. i suddenly feel like i lost everything. and my life is going to end. it’s a horrible feeling and i really don’t know why i’m feeling like that. my charger exploded today. i can no longer charge my ‘egg’ phone. sad point no. 1.  i love my ‘egg’ phone so much i wouldn’t want another phone. i’ve grown so used to it and there’s a lot of old pictures of me and the girls. truthfully speaking, this is the phone i wanna grow up with. no one accompanied me today. i felt lonely, abandoned and just really alone.. my heart feels like it’s tearing apart. no words can describe how i feel right now. sad point 2 : the Os. fuck off la. i feel like i owe the Os my life. i’m not gonna be able to fully enjoy myself until this huge TEST of my LIFE is over. get the hell away from me you big hole. i’m not feeling well at all. i have a really bad headache and my stomach’s churning with worries and the weather sucks. this place is a furnace. 21st september, you suck.

tranquil? not

who would have thought? jasmine’s bloggin! ohmanohman. okay, peer pressure. had this cos of zing cos she thinks this is SUPER fun woohoo! haha okay, i’m at her place right now we are gonna do chemistry later.. yes, we are hardworking girls. i watched MAMMA MIA yesterday but i didn’t really have a ball of a time. zing watched with mat and ann. i wished i was watching with them too but that’s alright.

wardrobe malfunction:

i hate like almost HALF of the stuffs in my wardrobe – old, smelly and like yucky.eww anyway i’m waiting for november 13th please come quick quick quick i’m gonna have so much more fun after this. eesh, 3 more weeks of pure torture.

global weather :

sucks. the weather is getting from bad to worst and i’mreally really concerned we are not gonna live to see the next generation. i really think the world is coming to an end. and let’s just say, tomorrow the worldcomes to a standstill, i wouldn’t even have accomplished ANYTHING. and this is a kind of crisis. it’s so sad to know that i’ve been wasting like a crucial amount of time in my life with a bunch of processed bark. 😦

bitch alert :

don’t wanna say too much. WHAT IS WITH PEOPLE AND NARROW-MINDEDNESS?! i’m watching you bitch, dont’ think you can fucking humiliate me in front of other people you freakin midget. eesh you need mental assistance you bitch. i HATE you. you think you have the authority to go around slammin people. well you’re wrong bitch! think! think! you need a bit more intelligence to survive cos you know what? i’m watching you.

lalala, i hope my sister gets well soon. i don’t wish for her to be in so much pain i feel quite useless when i see her lying on the bed. i can’t help her, no one can so i hope she will be instilled with like a power to be able to overcome the pain to sit up, and maybe start to walk.

bullshit. this post is quite crappy but what the hell, i’m outta touch. i’m NOT a blogger woohoo but now i am. seeeeeee ya later alligator