Kim & Jessie

i am shattered! my body is aching all over. probably from yesterday’s FIRST EVER volleyball training. i think i kind of sprained my right hand while doing the underhand serve. 😦 it hurts when i bend it.

had work yesterday it was pretty much a good shift of 6.5 hours. i had fun of course like half of the time though i wish i’d stop getting POS. i hate being the first to interact with the customers. but it would suck if i had to interact at the bar cos you’d have nothing much to say if you were me. yesterday i was whining the whole night away when there weren’t customers. because that’s when you have the most time to think about what you hate about life because you don’t have anything to do. i was really, really tired yesterday.

i woke up at about 9 this morning because i couldn’t sleep anymore so i decided to get out of bed. it rained yesterday it’s so awesome and coldsy in the morning! i have the motivation to finish my tutorials for this week today 🙂 ALRIGHT! haha i got a presentation on wednesday ………. yuck.

Fujiya & Miyagi

i just found a really great way to take a bus back to my granny’s place. i have to take two buses but the total journey is like lesser than 45 minutes!! WTH?!?! that’s fast right.

haha anyway. i’m really really really tired. i’m not looking forward to work later. it’s from 3 to 10pm. 😦

just had volleyball in S&W and i have bruises on my hand. hahaha. now’s CATS. boring. i hope we end early.

1-Up

😦

i’m so angry at school. it’s sucking the life out of me. imagine all the things i can do with the time i spend in school. it’s so stupid.

they all treat us like we’re primary school kids

anyway. yesterday was damn fail seriously omg. i wanted to meet zing and mat for some running at tampines stadium. and because i got damn giddy suddenly, which i seriously didn’t know how it happened. we didn’t meet for running in the end. took a two hour nap woke up feeling MUCH MUCH better but i felt like shit cos again because it was another failed attempt at trying to have self-motivation for exercise. so i asked lincoln if i could go to the gym at his place. and i tell you FAIL!!! like the threadmill wasn’t working, yes, IT’S OUT OF ORDER. bloody shit. so i did this thing that seriously kills your knees and calves. and the cycling thing. then there was this nice nice german-ish guy? he’s goodlooking and muscular but he damn fail like he did the weights and he could only do like 3 and then rest for centuries. hahaha. and he was making really bad sex-sounds when he exhaled. HAHAHA

i’m in school now it’s so so so boring.

can’t wait for saturday…………. COME QUICK! oh yes!!! haha, cheers in school finally have Apple and Cranberry juice!! mmmm…

Antacid

omgoodness just kill me now. ITB is super boring. it’s to convince us that IT is really important in this world and that we must learn IT. what bullshit. i mean i know how to use the laptop, that’s enough for me. i’ll HIRE someone to do it for me in future.

the lecturer is really weird. he’s short-ish he tucks in his shirt into his pants that he wears so high up. and he has this handtowel that he uses throughout the class. omg. like weird please. but he’s nice la. anyway. i’m like dying of gastric now. i’m so hungry and my stomach is growlingggg and i’m having gastric.

help i’m alive, my heart’s beating like a hammer.

kill me now

KNNBCCB

i feel really tired. i hate myself. i don’t know. sigh…

why is there homework??? there’s like 4 hours of IT in business. FUCK OFF. ann0ying sia. i hate hate hate school

blahblahblahblahblah….. shitshit 😦

FAIL

SCHOOL SUCKS SCHOOL SUCKS PLESE TAKE ME AWAY FROM SCHOOL. COS IT SUCKS SO SO SO SO BAD

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what was thinking. i’m so wrong about everything. it’s not okay. it has never been okay. have i grown to be such a detestable human being? tell me? it’s like rejection in itself. what should i do. what should i do. if i change myself it will be for my whole entire life. it’s not fair. it’s not what i want. to bound myself with these restrictions. what for live a life if i have to morph myself into something else. sure maybe i want it for myself as well but it’s so difficult. it’s such a difficult thing to do. do you understand? maybe you do but chances are you really don’t. i really hate myself now. fuck my fucked-up life.

i don’t have anything to turn to now. my friends will understand and be there for me. but they’ll never be me. family? bullshit. i hate my life so much now. i just want to die. i really really really want to dig a hole in the ground and just disappear. what was i hoping for? for someone to really not mind? that i’m made this way? it’s not something that i want for myself.

the hurt the hurt the hurt. i’m not angry i’m just really hurt. it’s not your fault. it’s entirely mine. to my life that i love i kiss you goodbye. to the world that i once had that i so fucking hate, this is the world i need to be in now. and for the rest of my life. i’m unhappy i’m really unhappy. there’s nothing in the world that can make me feel better. what’s done is done.

Grolandic Edit

first day of school was retarded enough ohmygooness. okay. because some of my old classmates were in the combined class we had yesterday, alicia and i met up with them first. it was so horrible when we got to the class when we saw all the FAIL people just pouring  into the class one after the other. DAMMIT. like there was this china girl!!! hahaha her name is quite weird i can’t remember it. there was this other girl with a weird name too. whatever la. like they were so so so so so so so so fail i tell you. alicia shihwee, who were sitting beside me, whom i was complaining to the whole time, felt the same about those humans. i haven’t had the chance to get to know who’s in my class. so ya i’m hoping it’s not the china girl or actually, hoping that NONE of them are in my class. !!!

to neutralize the whole bad first day of school, i met zing after school at the salvation army!!! I BOUGHT THIS PAIR OF BLACK JEANS FROM CALVIN KLEIN THAT IS LIKE SOOOOOOOOOO BOOMZZZZZZZZZZZZZ I TELL YOU. THANK YOU ZING FOR FINDING IT FOR ME

LIYE WE MUST TOTALLY COME HERE ANOTHER TIME WITH ZING THE THINGS THERE ARE SO BOOOOOMZ WOOHOO!

Suffer For Fashion

HELLO WORLD!! haha haven’t had a decent post in like FOREVER!!

okay today i had tuition with shawn at like 930am. then went to jj for work  which started at 1 ended at like 7. i am SO SO SO tired!!! haha, met liye after work and had dinner with her together with claudia. i’m back at home now. so so so tired. i haven’t used the computer in like AGES.

omg i’m like checking my timetable it sucks to have to do this and get used to looking at something so BORING after so long. sigh. sigh. i’m like really really depressed now. 😦 sigh sigh sigh………..

SIGH

anyway! today! i! worked! with! a! china! lady!

she was the shift manager OMGGGG hahahaha she’s so horrendous like she was wearing this stupid ugly shirt with her socks WAYYY above her ankles and like her skirt was shorter than the apron so if you look at her from the front you would think that she wasn’t wearing ANYTHING but a polo tee and an apron. YUCK right. omg she’s so freaking gross. like SERIOUSLY.

and she’s so greedy! every partner of starbucks is entitled to a partner’s meal, which simply means you get to take a pastry and like 2 drinks. she freaking took breakfast (her own partner meal). she ate this spicy noodle thing for lunch (this i saw with my own eyes) and like she freaking asked another partner if she was taking her partner meal, if not she’ll take a cheese bagel. BLOODY HELL SHE’S SO SO SO SO GREEDY.

AND THEN. she’s so freaking rude. like i was washing the plates and the mugs right and she finished her stupid cheese bagel and she just left the plate by the sink. bloody hell expect me to wash and she didn’t even say thanks. she didn’t even bother to clear the freaking plastic cup of cream cheese, which by the way we’re not allowed to take. BLOODY HELL RIGHT. walao eh. and then i took her plate and washed it. she took her mug of drink and emptied it in the sink and just left it by the sink for me to wash, WITHOUT A THANK YOU. fucking china bitch. I SWEAR i so so so so hate them more and more everyday. stupid china national.

i hope i can find good clothes for school i need them!!!!!!

CHINESE RAGE

OHMYGOODNESS. i so so so so hate the chinese even more now. it’s like complete bullshit that they just take it out on these poor animals just so that they can get their lovely fur that will provide for their one years’ meals for their 3 generation-family staying under one roof. FUCK YOU ALL YOU CHINESE LOW-DOWN FUCKERS. you all deserve to burn in hell.