TO THE WINDOOHHHHHHHHH, TO THE WALL!

another day gone just like that! i swear something’s wrong with my left eye it’s been itching NON-FUCKING-STOP for the last two days! it’s really driving me nuts! i can’t seem to concentrate on anything and it’s red and sore as hell ohmygoodness…

anyway i’m going to catch some sleep before another long day of work unfolds before me. wish me luck!

Love is a losing game

i apologise for this post. i am upset with myself.

i can’t stop thinking about lincoln. even though i know he’s not worth my time, my mind lingers to him. i just miss him so much. i wish i could party and party and party and party my life away. the only time i don’t think about him is when i am having a good time in the club. i just want to be there now, rather than sitting here, typing away and feeling sorry for myself.

i’m such an idiot seriously. that night i had a dream he said he wanted me back. when i woke up, he was gone. sometimes i doubt if i really can move on because on nights like this, he’s like a parasite in my brain.

it is unnatural to reminisce the past when i know it’s really blown up; and there’s no way of going back to the happy days. i feel so hollow inside; i have lost myself in this pool of sadness.

i feel like giving up on everything and just sleeping forever, but i know that i am better than that. i will not let myself sink further, i have to focus on what’s in front of me and just carry on with life gloriously.

lifesuxxxx after you had an awesome ladiesnite

OMG LAST STRAW LAST STRAW FINAL WARNING JXL AND DRAGONFLAMEFUCKINGGAYLORD

YOU BOTH CAN JUST FUCK OFF AND DIE, just do us a favour and DO THAT PLEASE

pardon me just have to let off some steam here because i really can’t focus on work. i hate this shit and my ankle is still hurting after so long i really hate myself for taking such a long time to do work sometimes. i just can’t concentrate i’m sorry shihwee 😦

Sian

I sprained my foot yesterday night an after a long day at school I am at changi general hospital. I am hungry and this place reeks of sick people and I can feel the germs just clinging onto me.

I don’t know how long this will take but I have spent 85$ already for this consultation. I haven’t actually seen the doctor but I hope I get to do so soon. I just want to go home an prepare for my interview at grohe tomorrow.

A sprained foot means I can’t wear heels tomorrow so I will look quite awkward (wearing flats with a skirt) and less professional. I hope they hire me I really need to look pretty tomorrow maybe they are more likely to hire me?

This is really a waste of my time, but I’ve got no choice. I brought this unto myself

THEULTIMATEPOPPIN’BOTTLESINDAICENIGHT

🙂 CAN’T WAIT FOR TOMORROW TO COME

No Monday blues for me!

Was supposed to do work today but enjoyed myself playing mahjong with the girls at szeli’s place woohoo! Best Monday night so far.

I am dreading school tmr cos we need to see the piglet. And it’s going to be a very long day of work at school. Glad that the deadline has been extended by 3 days, but this doesn’t affect us very much because the software to process our work only can be used on campus. Which means the extra weekend given to us is quite useless? Haha whatever I am just glad we are given some help.

I need to get MORE sleep my body is aching for some reason, like my shoulders and back. Maybe I’ve been sleeping funny but I can’t tell…

Goodnight sweet dreams everyone 🙂

sing for absoluuuuuuuution

super dreading school tomorrow and the days following monday. i am really craving for some sort of relaxation. so tired after two days of work, really drained.

i was just thinking to myself on the way to my granny’s just now – that i haven’t held hands for a looooooong time. i think i am missing someone a bit too much, for what? i don’t know. haha so stupid.

things are looking better for me, i am feeling less upset and abandoned. i am looking at things from a different perspective. so don’t worry i am still the same jasmine as like 5 years ago.

goodnight everyone i am going to catch as much sleep as i can before a long week of school begins. thanks for reading

HOLY MOLY GUACAMOLE

came home from work today and after just one episode of masterchef i went to sleep for about 2 hours and i woke up feeling groggy and disgusting. went to take a bath and start/finish my coding work and yay i’m done.

caught harry potter twice this week. and watching it the second time was really much better than the first. maybe because i already knew what was going on and tried to listen harder to the dialogue and understand wtf they were trying to say, and i am referring to dumbledore the gaylord.

so anyway, does anyone feel sad that voldermort died? i felt so bad for voldermort because even though he has killed many mercilessly, he is just a poor thing who wants to cover up his own sadness with power.

work tomorrow morning, don’t feel like i can wake up 😦

i miss the days of nonchalance

because even magic can’t help me now

i am really feeling scared and insecure right now. i feel like everything is downhill from here on.

just checked my art schedule and i realised that the assignment that i forgot to hand in is 25%. just because i didn’t know when the deadline was, i let 25% slip by and  be thrown away. i really feel like crying right now. i am such a loser. i have lost all fighting spirit, i don’t feel motivated to do well and i let myself sleep free days away. what am i doing with my life? i know my gpa will drop this semester because i no longer have the motivation to do well, no longer have anything to prove to my mother and say hey, i can cope with my schoolwork and have a relationship.

i hate myself for underachieving i know i can do better, what did i let myself become… i am really disappointed with myself i have never felt so down in the dumps before. how do i pick myself up… this is a nightmare

this is really fucked up this is not even funny. how in the world are we supposed to come up with an IMC program, a fucking branding proposal and a marketing research proposal and presentation within two weeks and on top of that, cope with the fucking test in two days’ time?!

this is atrocious how can the school make us do so much work and still make us study for tests? on top of that, make us work with these incompetent china people and stupid group members? it’s like doing double work. we don’t even have 5 people in the group, we only have 3, minus the china girl and the bastard who always leaves early.

seriously, this is really driving everyone insane

plus everyone around me except shihwee and weicheng have gotten their internship results. and it seems like i will not get any of my choices

hasbro -taken by some motherfucker
singex venues – taken by alicia cos it’s her first choice but my second, fml
newton circus – taken by some other motherfucker
robert bosch – not taken
acquire talent – not taken
lianbeejeco – not taken

and the thing is the office of school hasn’t even sent me any news like, they didn’t even tell me if they have sent my resume to any of the companies i was interested in. seriously, what the fucking fuck?

and they went to send my house a warning letter for me skipping school or being late on several occasions. fuck you la BA office. fuck you