Psychological Fuck, Babe

this makes me want to get a shower cap. you know, for protection.

o’fuckinhell

stop fucking crying because you know it’s not going to help

stop fucking moping because you know he’s not going to care

start forgetting

start forgiving

start now jasmine.

SHE CAN SAY…

like a snail in a tree
like a decaffeinated espresso
like those feet that won’t walk
like those smelly roses
like the fat supermodel
like santa claus

there is no ‘us’

C.O.D

argh it’s so difficult to get you out of my mind.

it’s been a long time since i dreamed of you. i dreamed we were back together and you were trying really hard to follow me because i didn’t know you still wanted me. i think as the dream progressed i got more conscious and it was in my subconscious state of mind that i reminded myself it was not possible that we were together. oh my god. this is really difficult.

i hate reminding myself that i’m alone and i don’t have you anymore. most nights i just want to call you and hear your voice, or like pray for a text from you. i hate myself so much.

Go Outside

i am so proud of myself for doing well this semester. PAT ON THE BACK JASMINE

i have let myself slide back into comfort because of music and i have lost all inspiration for words driven by pure angst, which is a pity.

today zing and i saw two rhinoceros at the workplace haha it’s so hilarious how some ugly people can get ‘far’ in life. i am SO mean this will definitely come back to haunt and destroy me.

goodnight guys, lots of kisses for all yall

that sinking feeling is back again

Awww

i am experiencing like post-rollercoaster-trauma. haha giddy and tired and aching and really just proud of myself for stepping wwayyyyyyyyyyy out of my comfort zone.

thank you guys for the really awesome day at uss and may all of us be really happy with our results tomorrow

much love

LEAP

this is so fucked up, because everything is clear to the people who care about you. and i don’t know why you’re keeping it from them. shirking responsibility? turning away from having to make explanations?

my mother asked how i am today, we had a long talk about life, about you, about the future.

everything is broken, run-over, burned-up, irreparable

Safari

the lack of words to describe my day is quite saddening. i’m not feeling down, just feeling really really tired. and my eyes hurt.

………..

how.

oh yes  just finished reading fight club. and it’s really good! like i really wanna watch the movie now after reading it because it’s an awesome story and HelenaBC is starring in it. omggggggg so tired but i can’t sleep.

alexander arnold… you sexy metalhead omgggggg